I Can Fantasize About Whatever I Want
mrgirl Lyrics

Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴  Line by Line Meaning ↴You're playing Minecraft, in a cave, looking for diamonds
That's funny; I'm in the same cave, looking for minors
'Cause my sexual attraction to minors is major
Can't even play hopscotch without popping a rager

Always been a pervert, so I accept the insults
When I was a kid, I fucking molested adults
So Shoe0nHead, Deadwing, and MoistHypoCr1TiKaL

If you bitches think I give a motherfucking shit if y'all

Get me banned again, get off that crack you smoking
And you can't pretend this fucking track ain't smoking
Token like the black friend, roll you over, backspin
Roll over, you won't look back when I'm over you, I knew Max when

He only had 4k subs, all Ls
No dubs, no love, hol' up, 'cause sho'nuff
I fucked every damn chance I've been given
Priapism, never let up, sky's the limit

I'd say mind your business, but I need mindless critics
To advertise my sick shit, you say I'm addicted?
But you keep humping my leg, now that's addiction
No rap, no convictions, but I rap with conviction
You still got suspicion that I'm a pedo
I'm surprised I'm not, 'cause my mom the lesbo
Had a bitch, but she thought that I was special
I'll never forget the time she said so

She kicked me out 'cause she was afraid she'd rape me
Her little sixteen-year-old baby, it breaks me
And if I ever have my own child who hates me
I promise I'll at least wait until you're eighteen

I can fantasize about whatever I want
You can't stop what happens in my head
'Till I'm dead
I'll be singing

I can fantasize about whatever I want
You can't stop what happens in my head
'Till I'm dead (uh)
'Till I'm dead

I'm hiding in the woods behind your house like the Slender Man
But I'm Jewish, so it's pronounced "Slendermann"
Enderman, look at me, never see your friends again
Tell 'em to smash that like button for Benjamins

Call me Benjamin Button, that's adrenochrome, honey
The older I get, the more my demons grow hungry
And Shaelin's a feminist, don't need no feed no feed a ho money
Plus her hairy armpits make my penis feel funny
Oh!

I never spare you the details, even if that's what you want
Like your uncle remarried two shemales-new aunts
My granddad used to take baths with my momma when she was fourteen
Guess that's where we started the trauma
There was this one time my dad said he throttled my throat
It was late afternoon, forgot to call on the phone
Sometimes I picture showing up at his house
Shoving a motherfucking gun in his mouth

And my mom? No thanks; don't wanna touch her
Flashbacks of her asking me: "What's a motherfucker?" and she smiled
That's a special kind of incest
I screamed "Get out!" she put a soft, wet kiss on my neck

I thought we're supposed to be free thanks to Abraham Lincoln
But now you're all too scared to say what you're thinking?
You're a victim? Fuck that! I cancel cancel culture!
Don't listen to these bitches (watch), I can handle vultures

Dealing with these batches of weasels like diesel patches
Why's CreepShow Art riding my D so hard?
Fucking sociopath, yeah, you preying folks while you doodle
I'll steal your motherfucking fans to stay afloat like pool noodles

I'm a shit YouTuber? Maybe I'm too human
I tell the truth to ya, balls like Jupiter
Plus some pubic hair, shoot for the moon like Ed Boon
Look to La Luna, now gimme my Pulitzer
They say bullets are the cure for whatever I got
I say you can fantasize about whatever you want (sex and violence)
Just be yourself, really. Fuck they gonna do?
And if I still love me, you know I love you too

But are you ready for the most fucked up line of the song?
Where you tear your hair up thinking if it's right or it's wrong?
Is he trolling, mentally ill, or just horrible?
You know the scariest thing about me?
I'm normal.

I can fantasize about whatever I want
You can't stop what happens in my head
'Till I'm dead
I'll be singing

I can fantasize about whatever I want
You can't stop what happens in my head
'Till I'm dead (uh, uh)
'Till I'm dead

Uhhhhhh...
Fuck

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to mrgirl's song "I Can Fantasize About Whatever I Want" are shocking and disturbing. The song seems to be about his unhealthy attraction to minors, his acceptance of being a pervert and the fact that he has molested both adults and minors in the past. He seems to be calling out several YouTubers like Shoe0nHead, Deadwing, and MoistHypoCr1TiKaL who criticized him in the past and insinuating that they have some sort of addiction to him. He also mentions disturbing details about his family members like his grandad taking baths with his momma when she was just fourteen, and his dad throttling his throat. He also talks about hiding in the woods like the Slender Man and fantasizing about shoving a gun into his dad's mouth.

The song is filled with references to sexual violence towards minors, incest, and other taboo subjects. The lyrics seem to express a desire to shock and disturb the listener, and it's not clear if mrgirl is being serious or if he's simply trolling the audience. However, his past behavior on social media and YouTube suggests that he may indeed have some disturbing inclinations.

Despite the controversial nature of the song, it has gained a significant following online, with many people praising mrgirl's willingness to speak honestly about taboo topics. However, others have condemned the song as promoting pedophilia and sexual violence.

Line by Line Meaning

You're playing Minecraft, in a cave, looking for diamonds
You're engaged in a harmless virtual game, searching for valuable resources

That's funny; I'm in the same cave, looking for minors
Ironically, I have a twisted attraction to underage individuals that I pursue

'Cause my sexual attraction to minors is major
I have a significant and disturbing sexual interest in minors

Can't even play hopscotch without popping a rager
Even innocent activities like hopscotch trigger intense sexual arousal in me

Always been a pervert, so I accept the insults
I acknowledge that I've always been a deviant and thus, I embrace the insults directed towards me

When I was a kid, I fucking molested adults
As a child, I engaged in the horrifying act of sexually assaulting adults

So Shoe0nHead, Deadwing, and MoistHypoCr1TiKaL
Referring to specific people involved in the online community

If you bitches think I give a motherfucking shit if y'all
I want to convey that I don't care at all about the opinions of these individuals

Get me banned again, get off that crack you smoking
Stop trying to get me banned once more and stop engaging in destructive behavior

And you can't pretend this fucking track ain't smoking
You cannot deny that this track is incredibly impressive and powerful

Token like the black friend, roll you over, backspin
I use individuals as tokens to make myself appear more diverse, then exploit and manipulate them

Roll over, you won't look back when I'm over you, I knew Max when
Once I'm done using and manipulating you, you won't have any desire to remain in contact with me. I have previous experience with Max, a reference to a shared history

He only had 4k subs, all Ls
Max only had 4k subscribers and faced many failures

No dubs, no love, hol' up, 'cause sho'nuff
No victories, no love, wait a minute, because this is definitely true

I fucked every damn chance I've been given
I've squandered every opportunity that has come my way

Priapism, never let up, sky's the limit
I have a persistent and painful erection, and I won't stop until I've reached the highest levels of success

I'd say mind your business, but I need mindless critics
I would normally tell you to mind your own business, but I rely on mindless critics to gain attention

To advertise my sick shit, you say I'm addicted?
I use controversial content to promote myself, and you claim that I'm addicted to it?

But you keep humping my leg, now that's addiction
You continuously pursue me and seek attention, displaying addictive behavior

No rap, no convictions, but I rap with conviction
I don't have a criminal record, but I rap with strong belief and passion

You still got suspicion that I'm a pedo
You still have doubts and suspect that I have a sexual interest in children

I'm surprised I'm not, 'cause my mom the lesbo
I'm surprised I'm not a homosexual, as my mother is a lesbian

Had a bitch, but she thought that I was special
My mother had a partner, but she believed that I held a unique place in her life

I'll never forget the time she said so
That moment when she expressed this sentiment is etched in my memory

She kicked me out 'cause she was afraid she'd rape me
My mother expelled me from her life out of fear that she would sexually assault me

Her little sixteen-year-old baby, it breaks me
As a vulnerable sixteen-year-old, this rejection deeply saddens me

And if I ever have my own child who hates me
If I become a parent and my child despises me

I promise I'll at least wait until you're eighteen
I assure you that I won't engage in any inappropriate behavior until you reach the age of eighteen

I'm hiding in the woods behind your house like the Slender Man
I'm lurking in the shadows near your residence, akin to the fictional character Slender Man

But I'm Jewish, so it's pronounced 'Slendermann'
As a Jewish individual, I pronounce it 'Slendermann' due to my cultural background

Enderman, look at me, never see your friends again
Similar to the Enderman character in Minecraft, I will make your friends disappear before your eyes

Tell 'em to smash that like button for Benjamins
Encourage your friends to enthusiastically support me by liking my content, possibly even for monetary gain

Call me Benjamin Button, that's adrenochrome, honey
Refer to me as Benjamin Button, alluding to the concept of adrenochrome, a substance associated with dark rituals

The older I get, the more my demons grow hungry
As I age, my inner demons become increasingly voracious and demanding

And Shaelin's a feminist, don't need no feed no feed a ho money
Shaelin identifies as a feminist and doesn't require financial support from anyone

Plus her hairy armpits make my penis feel funny
The sight of her unshaved armpits elicits a peculiar reaction in my genitals

Oh!
Exclamation used to express excitement or realization

I never spare you the details, even if that's what you want
I always provide explicit and disturbing information, regardless of whether or not it's what you desire

Like your uncle remarried two shemales-new aunts
An example of the unsettling details I'm willing to share, such as your uncle marrying two transgender individuals

My granddad used to take baths with my momma when she was fourteen
Sharing an unsettling memory involving my grandfather bathing with my mother when she was underage

Guess that's where we started the trauma
I believe that this experience played a role in the psychological damage we both experienced

There was this one time my dad said he throttled my throat
Recalling a time when my father threatened to strangle me

It was late afternoon, forgot to call on the phone
This incident took place in the late afternoon after I neglected to make a phone call

Sometimes I picture showing up at his house
Occasionally, I imagine confronting my father at his residence

Shoving a motherfucking gun in his mouth
Forcefully placing a gun into his mouth in a violent manner

And my mom? No thanks; don't wanna touch her
I have no desire to physically engage with my mother in any way

Flashbacks of her asking me: 'What's a motherfucker?' and she smiled
I vividly remember her smiling while asking me the meaning of a vulgar term-'motherfucker'

That's a special kind of incest
It represents a unique form of incestuous behavior and emotional manipulation

I screamed 'Get out!' she put a soft, wet kiss on my neck
Despite me demanding that she leave, she responded by giving me an affectionate and unsettling kiss on my neck

I thought we're supposed to be free thanks to Abraham Lincoln
Reflecting on the irony of claiming to live in a free society while facing personal traumas, referencing Abraham Lincoln's influence on freedom

But now you're all too scared to say what you're thinking?
Questioning the fear that seems to prevent people from expressing their true thoughts openly

You're a victim? Fuck that! I cancel cancel culture!
Rejecting the idea of considering oneself a victim and choosing to challenge and resist cancel culture

Don't listen to these bitches (watch), I can handle vultures
Discouraging others from paying attention to derogatory individuals and asserting my ability to deal with unscrupulous people

Dealing with these batches of weasels like diesel patches
Comparing the manipulative individuals I encounter to troublesome patches that require effort to handle

Why's CreepShow Art riding my D so hard?
Curious about why CreepShow Art is heavily criticizing and attacking me

Fucking sociopath, yeah, you preying folks while you doodle
Asserting that CreepShow Art is a sociopath who preys on individuals while pretending to be artistic

I'll steal your motherfucking fans to stay afloat like pool noodles
I'll attract and gain the support of your fans in order to maintain my popularity and relevance, using a metaphor of pool noodles to illustrate buoyancy

I'm a shit YouTuber? Maybe I'm too human
If people consider me a terrible YouTuber, perhaps it's because I'm too flawed and relatable as a human being

I tell the truth to ya, balls like Jupiter
I boldly speak the truth, demonstrating immense courage

Plus some pubic hair, shoot for the moon like Ed Boon
Alongside my determination, I possess a confident and ambitious mindset, drawing a parallel to game developer Ed Boon and aiming for significant achievements

Look to La Luna, now gimme my Pulitzer
Directing attention to the moon (La Luna), metaphorically representing a prestigious award (the Pulitzer Prize) that I believe I deserve

They say bullets are the cure for whatever I got
There is a belief that violence and harm can be a solution to my problems or actions

I say you can fantasize about whatever you want (sex and violence)
Contradicting the previous statement, I defend the idea that individuals can engage in any fantasies they desire, even if they involve sexual or violent themes

Just be yourself, really. Fuck they gonna do?
Encouraging others to embrace their true selves, regardless of the opinions or actions of others

And if I still love me, you know I love you too
Asserting that even if I maintain a positive self-image, I am also capable of expressing love and care towards others

But are you ready for the most fucked up line of the song?
Warning the listeners that the upcoming lyric will be exceptionally disturbing

Where you tear your hair up thinking if it's right or it's wrong?
Presenting a line that will provoke intense internal conflict and contemplation regarding morality

Is he trolling, mentally ill, or just horrible?
Questioning whether I am intentionally provoking or if my actions stem from mental illness or my inherently terrible nature

You know the scariest thing about me? I'm normal.
Revealing that the most frightful aspect of my persona is that I am not exceptional or abnormal, emphasizing the disturbing nature of commonality

Uhhhhhh... Fuck
Exclamation expressing a mix of frustration, confusion, and defiance

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