LUCKY ME
$uicideboy$ Lyrics

Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴  Line by Line Meaning ↴Ruby stay at home on a Friday night
Hoes blow up my phone, tell ′em that I'm quite alright
I might forget that my pimp game is weak sometimes
And if you slip, you fall in love, now she′s gone
Now I gotta ball, flex on Adderall
Sex on Tramadol, I guess I'll try 'em all

As I recollect, the records I collect

Most of the artists wished for an early death
I will give it my all, yes, I will give it my best
Anything to replace all the static in my chest
But I know she won′t be home, I feel so fucking broke
I′m lethal, I bleed foam, and seep smoke

Tryna join the 27 Club
So many times tried to get off the subs
Yung Inebriated, Lil Half Cut
Both knees are shaking from the mass drugs
I put in my body every day, daily
Ex on my mind when I start masturbating
Somebody save me, 'cause I have no patience
When it comes to death, I′m not tryna be waiting
Not tryna be slaving for no vacation
Not tryna be you, or that bitch that you're datin′, save all the faking

I'm just rollin′, smokin' with my two cups, still losing
In between if I'ma fold or blow up, $uicide is what I′m choosing

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of $uicideboy$'s "Lucky Me" touch upon themes of self-destructive behavior, addiction, and heartbreak. The first stanza portrays the singer as someone who could have any woman he desires, but instead chooses to stay home alone. The mention of "pimp game" suggests that this behavior is a facade, and that he is actually struggling with feelings of worthlessness. The singer seems to be caught up in a cycle of drug use and meaningless sex, with the only respite being the records he collects. Throughout the song, the singer seems to be grappling with the idea of his own mortality, expressed in his desire to join the tragic 27 Club of musicians who died at that age.

The second stanza continues this theme of self-destructiveness, with the singer bemoaning the toll that drug use has taken on his body. The repetition of "daily" emphasizes how ingrained this behavior has become, and the lyrics suggest that the singer is using these substances to numb his emotional pain. The mention of an ex-lover further drives home this point, suggesting that the heartbreak he is experiencing is a driving force in his addiction. The lyrics "Not tryna be slaving for no vacation / Not tryna be you, or that bitch that you're datin', save all the faking" suggest that the singer is rejecting a traditional path to success and happiness, preferring instead to remain in his current state of addiction and despair.

Overall, "Lucky Me" is a bleak depiction of a person struggling with addiction and emotional turmoil, and the toll it takes on their relationships and self-worth.

Line by Line Meaning

Ruby stay at home on a Friday night
I choose to stay home alone on Fridays

Hoes blow up my phone, tell ′em that I'm quite alright
Girls call me, but I don't need them to feel okay

I might forget that my pimp game is weak sometimes
I am not always confident in my ability to attract women

And if you slip, you fall in love, now she′s gone
If you allow yourself to fall in love, you risk losing that person

Now I gotta ball, flex on Adderall
I have to show off and act tough, probably with the help of drugs

Sex on Tramadol, I guess I'll try 'em all
I am willing to experiment with different drugs for sexual pleasure

As I recollect, the records I collect
As I look back on my life, the music I listen to is important to me

Most of the artists wished for an early death
Many musicians have struggled with mental health and contemplated suicide

I will give it my all, yes, I will give it my best
I will try my hardest to succeed in life

Anything to replace all the static in my chest
I want to get rid of the emotional pain I feel inside

But I know she won′t be home, I feel so fucking broke
I miss my ex-girlfriend and feel emotionally drained

I′m lethal, I bleed foam, and seep smoke
I am a dangerous person, consumed by drugs and self-destructive behavior

Tryna join the 27 Club
I want to die young like many famous musicians

So many times tried to get off the subs
I have tried to quit drugs before, but it's hard

Yung Inebriated, Lil Half Cut
I am always drunk or high

Both knees are shaking from the mass drugs
I am physically and emotionally unstable due to my drug use

Ex on my mind when I start masturbating
I think about my ex-girlfriend when I masturbate

Somebody save me, 'cause I have no patience
I need someone to help me because I cannot do it alone

When it comes to death, I′m not tryna be waiting
I don't want to wait to die, I am ready to die now

Not tryna be slaving for no vacation
I don't want to work a dead-end job just to get a vacation

Not tryna be you, or that bitch that you're datin′, save all the faking
I don't want to be like anyone else, and I don't want to put on a facade

I'm just rollin′, smokin' with my two cups, still losing
I am just going with the flow, smoking and drinking, but I'm still not happy

In between if I'ma fold or blow up, $uicide is what I′m choosing
I am unsure if I will succeed or fail, but I have chosen a path of self-destruction

Writer(s): Scott Anthony Arceneaux Jr, Aristos Petrou

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